leçons secretes [bentley]

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I can go out every night of the week [/size]

Can go home with anybody I meet,

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While Bentley had never had life plans that were in depth, developing feelings for a servant had never made it on that list anywhere, not that anything about feelings really had though. Really he had no desire to take back the time spent with the girl, nor the feelings that he withheld but of course had he not gone through such, he would not have been as he was now. There would not have been the feeling of regret that came to mind whenever he saw her now. He should have tried to speak with her earlier on, to try and state his reasons but now he could not bring himself to do so as he feared that she would not give him the chance and listen to the irrational logical he had going on in his mind. She did not know that he wanted her to come to France to meet his parents, he wanted to expose the truth of this to them and really figure out a way for everything to work out in the end. What was he turning into? None of these were appropriate thoughts if he was to rule over France in the future and with the way he was thinking, that did not appear to be a bright future for him. Surely if his parents knew of this, they would submit him somewhere before ever even considering to have him reign over a country. Everyone would most likely consider him to be insane and well that was not the best possible view or so he believed in his personal opinion. He needed to try and expand his focus past his servant and school work but to start looking into the ideals of ruling with a bit more serious as he really should have been doing so earlier and well it was better to start now rather than never.

He managed to continue the lesson with Rylie brokenheartedly after the instance where the both had admitted that they wanted things to be as they were in one way or another. Neither seemed real impressed with the way things had changed and what not but of course it had been unavoidable and they had both known this. Not that either wanted to admit to so. All was said and done now as really he was powerless to change things otherwise. Finally he was able to see how his plans never turned out well, not a single one ever ended up being close to 'flawless'. How would this be any different, the one he had conjured up for he and Rylie? And this was when he started to doubt it before abolishing the idea entirely. No longer would it be worth it to think about so, it speculate what might have happened had reality not existed. The girl would continue to be something that could never be his, as it was meant to be. There would never be an 'us' between them; nothing. And while these realizations hurt, he started trying to put a distance from her, to yet again let his feelings lie elsewhere. He stopped thinking of such and just continued with the lesson as no matter what, this had to be nothing shy of perfection since they could not afford any less. Nodding as she apologized, he shrugged a little. Nothing to worry about, it was sort of expected, actually. Lyrics commented gently, not meeting her gaze any more for the time being. From there he decided to continue his brief teaching, sticking with the most simple, yet essential things she would need to be informed about. While French would not be a completely necessary thing, he figured it might be best if she were to know a few words here and there. Brow rose and small smile appeared on features as she started speaking a few phrases in fluent French with a well practiced accent which did amuse and impress him. Parfait. {Perfect.} He uttered quietly with a small nod, smiling with encouragement at her as he already was very certain that she was getting on with this really well already.The fact that she had already taken both etiquette and French classes was essentially beneficial as it would make a lot of things much easier.Starting from scratch with limited time would have only added to the disaster of all of this yet actually things were going swimmingly at the current moment. While Rylie looked relaxed, he maintained confident and averted his gaze somewhat as he needed to start being more tolerant of her presence but not allow what had been there to come back. A distinct wall needed to be built for him and this would take time but it would have to be done. He could no longer backtrack, only move forward in preparation to the future. It was time to grow up and move forward instead of wasting his time and fantasizing in some ridiculous mindset. And if they ask you about hobbies, nothing over strenuous and daring, but I know you've got that covered. He advised quietly, glancing in her direction momentarily.Think you can handle all of this? The question was rhetorical though because even if she didn't, he believed she would not have the least bit of problem in this.

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But it's just a temporary high 'cause when I close my eyes,

I'm somewhere with you.

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TAGGED :: Rylie <3
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STATUS :: Complete.
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She was constantly running over things in her mind that she thought might help in making this situation less awkward for the two of them but sadly enough she had not been able to come up with anything that she thought was actually going to help. She was not too sure if this awkward feeling between the two of them was ever going to go away and this caused her stomach to feel as though it was sinking into the depths of her insides, not a good feeling at all since she was the type that always knew how to make things better and she felt like she was failing miserably. What was she supposed to do? She knew that there was not even going to be any person that was going to be able to give her advice since it was a strange situation that people did not deal with on an everyday basis and they would be guessing just as much as she was if they were to give her advice. Was she supposed to go with her gut instinct that told her to ignore her feelings even though it was not natural and to hope that they would slowly disappear or was this all a mistake since it was making the two of them miserable? Should she go with what felt even more right than ignoring everything? She could not help but feel that both decisions were wrong, which was the lesser of two evils? This was not making this whole situation with the two of them having to pretend that they were in a relationship when they went to France any easier and she knew that she was going to have to at least do SOMETHING to settle her own inner turmoil a little.

When she had first met him there had not been this air of seriousness and constant feeling of a block cloud seeming to hover over him, so she knew that she was the stem of some of this but at the same time maybe it was just him changing all on his own? She had not been around him long enough to know if this was true or not but she was going to have to make sure to keep an eye on him and make sure that he was not going to waltz down the path of self destruction that a lot of the young Princes seemed to around here. It was a toxic situation most of the time them being this close to one another with all the rivalries and enemies as well as back stabbing friends they made, not to mention the gossip blog. They would all be better off if they were to remain in their respective countries with the tutors that they all had probably started off with. Though this was the school that was going to ensure the best education and it was deemed a safe zone for all of them to interact and in some ways it was a very good thing since there were a lot of bonds and friendships that were formed that they would always be loyal to even when they were ruling their own countries and they were forced to interact and get to know the Royals from other countries. The one really nice aspect though was that it was not just hard on a few of them but on all of them and it was something that they were all in the same boat about. She was not too sure why the words that he spoke next stung a little when he stated that it was expected and she did not flinch though since she was too focused on the posture and everything else that she was learning even if their conversation had managed to take a little different of a turn. Before she managed to show the vulnerability she was able to change the conversation back to the lesson as fluent French left her lips and he seemed pleased at this. The smile that he shot her brought back memories and hit a little harder than she expected and it was then that she made the decision that she needed closure. She needed to convince her that there was nothing between them and she was just being ridiculous with the way that she was acting. Perhaps if she just had that closure she would be able to get over it all and go back to being strictly a servant like she knew she should. She nodded politely when he asked her if she would be able to handle all of this seeing as she did not seem to think it was going to be a problem. She felt frozen to the spot knowing that it was now or never and she needed to get this over with before it became more of a problem. I need closure. She uttered softly before getting to her feet and not daring to meet his eyes as she moved over to where he was sitting and in one fluid gesture bent at the waist to twist her neck slightly so she was able to meet his lips with her own across from where she was standing. Nothing had changed between them and this only proved to be a giant mistake and surely she was going to end up making this into even more of a mess than before, realizing her mistake she jerked back from where she had been hovering lightly from where she was standing and looked down at the floor. I.. I’m sorry. She stammered quickly and knew that really it was of no benefit from her to run from the building, but this was exactly what she did and she did not slow until she was in her own dorm room, sinking down to the corner of the living area and resting her head in her hands. There were going to be consequences she was sure but she was ready to accept them.

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